" Be still and know that I am God"
I am tired. I wanted you to know that I'm still here... just waiting. And I am not good at waiting. I am excited, as I said last week, to see what's next for me, for our family, but I think at this point God is just calling me into stillness. And it's hard because while I can sit and read/blog/write, I don't do the 'God wants me to just wait' kind of stillness very well. And the craziest thing is that I know personally how awesome it is to hear his voice. Isn't it strange how we can know something and yet continue to fall into old ways? (or maybe that's just me...)
So while I don't have much to say today, I thought I would share something I wrote a while back about being still. I may have shared it before, but it's a prayer I come back to when I need to remind myself just to wait.
God, how often do I forget to be still! But you love me even then. Give me strength to exalt you, God, because sometimes I lack even that. But I love you. I praise you because in chaos or in stillness you are an Irrepressible God. An Unshakeable God. A Sweet Tender God.
Your word moves me. I fall at your feet because that is all I can do. My heart is full of your love. You fill me up and I am deeply happy. In this quietness I exalt you. My heart of loud praise shatters the silence and I can nearly hear your laughter. Because you are. And I do know. Is this the thing that in the stillness you reveal? Because my only regret is not being quiet before this moment.